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If at First You Don't Succeed...

I've been here before, with your sibling, your older brother or sister who never came to be. But, you are here now. You. And I love you. I am ready to start this journey again, and I pray to God that it ends with you in my arms. Oh, my little one. I was so heart broken, and the pieces will never quite fit back together, but I am ready to carry you now, to love you now, to focus on you now, and make sure you are healthy. I can't lie and say that I am not nervous, nervous that you may not come to term as well, that I may lose you, too. I always say "third times the charm" but, I am not so sure that I would be able to lose your sibling and then you and still be able to try once more. The miscarriage wasn't an easy thing, and I weep for those women who have experienced it even once. I am just not sure if I am strong enough to experience that pain more than twice. Nothing is guaranteed, but I am in with my whole heart. I will dive right in to you with no reservati...