Dream a Little Dream of Me

The past two days have been some of the sleepiest and hungriest I have ever experienced in my life. They tell me you're growing quickly at about six weeks, and I believe it wholeheartedly. I have been nodding off at work, going to bed early, and taking naps whenever I can. I've stayed up until the sun peaked over the horizon more than once, and I can honestly say that that tiredness has nothing on this! I've never been one to really consume caffeine; in fact, I don't like the bitter taste of coffee and energy drinks have way too any calories, however, I did used to suck on couple of caffeine mints once a day to get through work. But, because of you and my desire to not get hooked on caffeine, I have been abstaining altogether, which means that I have been super struggling. I have nothing to boost my energy or give me a pick-me-up, and it made this week all the more difficult. Hopefully, this fatigue won't continue throughout the pregnancy, but if it does, I may just have to purchase more of those mints.

But, don't worry, my tiny little love, (I think you may be pee-sized by now), I will not overdose on caffeine, because I always use less than the recommended amount, and studies about caffeine consumption and the effect on a fetus are actually inconclusive, so you'll be safe no matter what. As for my hunger, I have been absolutely ravenous lately. Believe it or not, I am attempting to diet while pregnant. The doctor said it's completely fine and it's even encourage for some overweight pregnant woman. I had been dieting before you came along and I had gotten so far that I didn't want to stop. I know, it sounds absurd and, don't tell your father, but I feel myself getting more and more loose with my calorie intake. I've just gotten so hungry recently that I can't ignore it like I used to. I guess you're really zapping my energy, eh kiddo? We'll see what the future holds, but I do feel guilty by "cheating" everyday when I've lost 42 pounds since December. But, I'm pregnant, so I'm a little more powerless over the deliciousness that is food. Ice cream and the salty goodness of chips and nuts are my current weakness. We'll see where you take these cravings in the future.

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